Well; a lot has happened in the past 3 months. I moved to the larger city hopping for a new way of life but it was just too stupid to even mention. So after a long 3 months that felt like years I have finally moved back into my hometown just last week. Right now I'm trying to settle while looking for a new job.
Got bad news before coming down; I heard my dad wasn't doing too well since I had last saw him and I got really worried.... When I finally got back home I had no idea it was as bad as I thought.. From the 3 months I had last seen him; he lost at least 100 pounds. No more muscle; he can barely walk without being out of breath. I almost caved; I've never imagined to ever see my dad in this condition ever. Because of always coughing he has a lump on his lung; and has some spots on his liver. On top of that he struggles to eat or even stand to do everyday things.
I hope to god its good news this Thursday when I drive up with him and my mom to the doctors. I don't know what I'll do if its not. I'm really worried and I'm trying so hard to stay strong and not break down in front of my parents. I want to support them as much as I can in this situation. The only thing I can do is be here for them and find work.
I also need to get back into art but I'm just not feeling it right now... I have too much on my plate and the only thing I can do is play games or watch movies aside from looking for work.
I really hope its good news this week...